and looking around.
i have all 3 of my kids here, plus our family "other" child caleb who is dylans' bestie...he is welcome to move in anytime and i am sure the opposite is true in his house. i remember having a friend like that....though i never wanted her to move in with us, my house sucked.
i recently told my maybe partner, the very same man who 2 weeks ago i told i thought we should marry to provide some security for my children (this totally in spite of ANY thought we may have about marriage in general as the needs of my kids are bigger than any bullshit garbage we inherited from our parents or past relationships)....and as it turns out i might add....his BULLSHIT record far surpass any need of me or my children...they canl ive w/out his contribution of "security"......
anyways, where was i?
OH!!! sitting at the bookstore looking at and watching the 3 children i love best...sad that my financial and marital situation precludes me from being able to take any orphans from Haiti...since the ONE true thing i am most equipped to be is a good parent....but fully realizing how amazing these children i live with are. it shocks me really...as i live in a world where i know fully how much of a fuck up i really am....and how i could have squeezed these people out?
have i mentioned that i am ever so slightly complicated?
oh.....well, i suppose i am.
and it is of course time to wrap it up as i need to go feed the crew, without of course even finishing my thoughts.....
that's the way it is sometimes...you just don't get to finish your thought. not to your self, not to your friends...just not at all.
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